My awful life that i love

I haven’t been up dating much.

I should have been, but things got a little fucked up.

Let me tell you all the major things that happened.

1. I finished cookie and epitomy of hatred commented. Someother person commented, but that person has nothing to do with this.

2. prom

3. end of school.

4. summer

5. Epitomy Of Hatred. He happened. He was great. He was amazing. He was awesome.

5.5. told faye and iris. some family members know.

6. Little fucked up missunderstanding because I sent out wrong signals. I was having trouble with new feeligns.

7. everything gets a little better.

8. I realize that I might love him.

9. I told my self that I do.

10. Wanted honesty.

11. Asked a question that would test trust.

12. Everything exploded. I’m giving my self until tommorow to post the journal entry that I made today.

I’m blocking out the depression. Thank You MRC.

Great for blocking feelings.

I’m speculating. Thinking that he might have just used me for some fun. to cover a hole that his ex left behind. a temporary play thing.

That’s the problem with SICHI. She’s me. Raw. All me. All I am. The real me. My exposure.

I was doing great, and I’ll stilld o great. Nothing’s changed.

I still have screen shots of those messages that say that he loves me, and the one where he told me he really liked me.

These teenage feelings suck.